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maybe it's just me

 The morning after Trump was elected for the second time is perhaps not the best time to write.  But still, I'm in awe of the stupidity of the American public - the absolute shock that they'd believe in and vote for someone clearly lying and refusing to take ownership of anything.  The fact that they'd rather a felon than a woman - that rights in America will continue to decline - and the lingering worry that populism and fascism is headed this way.

And then one of the founders of home depot dies and we're all sad - only no one is sad to see a billionaire republican who was funding trump die.  a terrible man who used "woke" like a slur, and said socialism will ruin capitalism (let's hope so)..  i'm not sad.  

And a job I thought I had a really good chance at - didn't even get an interview.  Not even a conversation, while a friend (who I hope gets it) has his interview and the world just keeps moving on.

And I'm stuck here, caregiving.  Not hating it, but feeling a bit trapped and a bit unappreciated, and watching the seasons turn and people get promoted while I watch.

It must be me.

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